tuesday 1 june »»
Rare things will happen next week. On tuesday Venus will pass in front of the sun. Soon after her it will be my turn.
Drinking morning coffee i noticed that the kitchen clock had stopped at three fifteen last night. Red hand of seconds was still trying to move but it couldnt rise up from nine.
Cleaning up the bottom of one kitchen cupboard i found my old waffle pan. Handles in shape of hearts..
I threw away canister of old Spanish olive oil, white Kama Sutra liqueur bottle (ginseng & coconut), Polish Bonaqua in a plastic bottle, jar of lijsterbesjam (made by my brother), rusted wok pan, various liquids in bottles and dirty plastic bags.
I saved Vin de Pommes et Sorbes (12%) mis en bouteille 02.12.95 (self made), few flower pots, coffee maker and a pile of empty folded coffee bags.
I break something every day. (Today i broke Allu's blue ceramic lamp when i was reading a book in his room. He's gonna be sad when he hears about it cause the lamp was old and irreplaceable. Beautiful too. Well, i did glue the pieces together but it's not the same and a lot of blue chips are missing. Super-glue stuck hard on my fingers.)
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monday 31 may »»
Took down my curtains (one red, one green, one white & orange), washed them, packed them. Ironed blue curtains and hung them up to the window.
Running around town.
When Minna got home in the evening i helped her with the metamorphosis of a room. My room is shifting into her room but i still got a corner to myself. Puter and bed next to the door. Stuff spread along the corridor. Stuff in boxes piled in the hall. Banana boxes piled in the corner behind Minna's door. Glasses and fragile things stored in the bottom of her cupboard.
Before she went out in a bar i had to walk on her thick black fake rasta hair that was wrapped in a towel.
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sunday 30 may »»
until the end of time until the earth stops turning.. when i hear it my heart explodeS..
Annukka took me for a sunday brunch at Ekberg's. Her darling G-baby was with us. During the rain we sat chez moi drinking red wine and G-boy was playing on the floor. When it was sunny again we walked to the second hand market at the warehouses where i found me a new coffee cup.
Titta was waiting for the movers. She was laying on her sofa relaxing her back that's been in pain for few days now. I finally told her the sad news about the future and she held out her arm, come here. I cried on her shoulder.
Now Titta is gone to see her sister's new baby girl. The two movers here are here making new homes. I'm in my room which no longer looks like my room, except this naked corner. Could be i can still sleep here (where my bed still is) one more night. If not, Titta has already invited me to her bed.
My brother invited me in Italy for june which was sweet and i would have loved to go but i have another plan already. I'll visit them some other time.
Tomorrow i'll no longer have the Internet.
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saturday 29 may »»
No milk in the house and it's raining. I drink black coffee and listen to the lonely sound of raindrops on the windowsill. It makes me sad in an abstract way.
I comb my hair and whenever the comb gets stuck i use tiny scissors. In the trash basket i can see a small Palito box that i found behind the cds yesterday. There had been a thin skinned seed capsule (from Paris) in that box. I put the capsule and the black seeds that are inside of it in an empty film can. Last summer i gave one of those capsules to Sari and another to S's wife. Wonder if neither of them ever planted the seeds. I'll try to make mine grow.
Some day. Somewhere.
More banana boxes, packing.. Syrah red wine, packing.. Misty evening, still packing.. Brought some bags down into the trash. On top of the junk pile i found four wine glasses which i took with me (as if i didn't have enough to pack already). It's oh so quiet.
Smiling face in a frame is no longer on my desk. It's packed along with the arm and white ceramic bird. That was just the tip of the iceberg.. nothing is easy today.
Wish it was the eight day already. How slow the moments go..
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